Hi all! It’s been a hell of a long time since i last posted and a lot of SHIT has happened. Today’s topic happens to be Love Addiction. Why? Well, i just got dumped by a girl half way around the world that was not my wife. L.A. is defined by the need to feel new love. It’s not sexual. It’s kind of a teenage crush thing. I have experienced it since before i was married 22 years ago. I have probably had at least 8 girls that i had communicated with over my marriage. The worst part of L.A. is that your morals don’t matter. To your mind it really doesn’t matter that you are married with kids! It’s a solid crush! You want to be with that person to hold, kiss, etc,. The scariest part is, the feelings, feel completely REAL! It was ended a week ago when she tweeted me and said she wasn’t interested in a long distance relationship. Just like a crush, you feel rejected and it takes time to get over it. So here i am trying to get over a girl that dumped me, all the while my wife is telling me i cheated. Even now, after a week, i still don’t feel bad about it! The fantasy is still stuck in my head. I still think of contacting her.
I guess what i’m saying, is that, if my brain was “normal” and my morals were intact, i would have never done this. This or the other ones in my past history. At least my wife is understanding, as well as she can, anyway! She has a right to feel the way she does. We went and saw my shrink together today and went over it. I am going into an online addiction therapy.
Just another diagnosis to add to the pile! I think i have about 6 by now! Fun! Fun!
I’m feeling great today!!….writing this while listening to one of my favorite bands from the 80’s…the Outfield….those guys are tight!!!….”Since You’ve Been Gone”…is on right now…..i’m definitely hypermanic right now…but it’s all good…i would rather be here than in depression! ….i will deal with the loss of energy from…singing..dancing…playing with the kids and the dogs…Cooper is such a great little guy…he is so much fun…plus..the warm weather is coming…Sadie..my Lab/Terrier mix is great to play with outside..she loves to chase the ball while we throw it back and forth..Going to Nate’s school play tonight..he is a little cowboy dude…should be fun…hopefully more fun than boring 🙂
Wednesday……yeah…actually a pretty uneventful day…did a lot of sleeping..about a 5 hour nap after dropping the kids off at school..Took Zach to Crown Burger for his first time…he was totally happy with the experience…a Crown Burger at the Crown Burger…now we’re cooking…the secret…lots and lots of pastrami on top of that beef patty…yum…yum.. Mood has been pretty good today…not really up or down..just kinda there…oh..we found Cooper today..he came home and was at the back door this morning when we woke up…it was an awesome deal for us and the little guy…poor dude was outside all night though…at about 35 degrees that’s pretty hard on an eight pound dog….let’s just say it was very stressful for all involved…was a nice clear day and i could feel the sun again….i think i really am coming out of the depression…the world is BEAUTIFUL once again!
I guess..it was a pretty eventful day after all……